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2:31pm: Reality
So today I decided to type in "how do you know you are on the right track" on google...
and this pops up

"You Know You're Right by Nirvana on Rhapsody
You Know You're Right (selected track). 2. About A Girl. 3. Been A Son. 4. Sliver. 5. Smells Like Teen Spirit. 6. Come As You Are. 7. Lithium. 8. In Bloom ...
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You Know You're Right by Nirvana on Rhapsody
Listen to the full-length version of You Know You're Right by Nirvana on Rhapsody.com. ... Listen to Track: You Know You're Right, 17. You Know You're Right ...
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Healthy Relationships Quiz"


Well immedietly when i typed that in the next song on my mix CD was NIRVANA...They say that you should be looking for signs in life and as small and minut as they may seem to be we have to stay concious of our own surroundings so its a damn funny thing that that incident just happened..which lead me to want to write about it.

I have quit my job at the museum to start more restaurant work...learning more and more about wine and food pairing and gaining more food wine and spirit knowledge...have spent some months working on the line and prep in a kitchen...my chef tells me "I've got big plans for yoU" I dont know what that means but at the last scotch tasting i apparently made him "PROUD"

Serendipity...
I started to date again...I have a new home MY OWN HOME...not a room but my own small studio in downtown San Francisco and I am beginning to love it more and more...
Reminiscing and thinking too much so that hasnt really changed much. My nieces are growing up so quick and each time I see a you tube clip of them or a picture I sometimes regret moving again and not being able to be there to watch them grow up but then again they arent my children so when that day comes I should be able to see that growth. My earlier writings were more whiney bulletins or post in regards to heartbreak and boys and now I notice later and later entries include more life experiences.

5 fucking years...5 fucking years in San francisco is that true? 2003?
So what about that art history degree huh?

5:21am: i didnt realize that i was not finished writing...



I still am in love with someone else's smile...
I can and should not ever have him again

5:09am: shit
years....ive finally got my own place...years now..


drug induced and socially ...welli work so much i dont know what social is anymore...in this past year I have grown ...i have grown into someone that i assumed i was going to be years ago....so i guess it is going well...i graduated...i work i work i work i work i consume i go...i want to move on...i want to move forth...its a mild stepping stone...i just got home and I am about to leave in about 4 hours for work. I have done things tonight that I have told myself that I would never touch again. I relish these nights...these nights of regret...

so these nights...these late nights...where i talk and i walk and i work with those that i feeel should offer me some kind of steps to success...i intern...I strive...

my father has passed...my mother is growing old...my kin is forgetting...I am forgetting...In these time when I feel that I have abandoned or have been abandoned...I am not...maybe I have...I have had my heart broken many a times...and had my liver smashed by my excessive use of alcohol...my mind and body a trap for constant repetition...which is why i am disatisfied...


5 am...I do not know what is reality anymore...this reminds me of the time when I had to go to class...the time when I wrote that short story on that one girl that distrupted my life for that moment...


he had told me something the other day that made me want to hurt him...

"it is what it is"

not to be blunt...that is also what he said...

why now do I decide to write on this?
why now?

am amalgamation...is that how you spell it?
it is what it fucking is...my heart is once again broke but can mend and I can know that NOTHING ....NOTHING hurts as much as losing someone within your bloodline...your love maybe...

But I HAVE YET TO EXPERIENCE that yet.

12:59pm: long time...
back to basics...

back to feelings...

back to being too overly sensitive...

but i am stronger...

still confused...23 and going on strong...

i have a crush once again...i didnt think I would so soon, esp. after a breakup...but good thing is, we are still friends.

Still in SF...

Still in school...Still tired...still restless...

OH HUSBAND...I am thinking about you (inside joke)...

growing old...growing tired...gaining wisdom...im probably going to get menapause early...

lets hope i dont!

i want to fart so bad, but i am in the computer lab and there are people sitting next to me.
Caffeine, eggplant, rice, and soup...
smooooooooooooth.

New home once again...

so nice to see familar faces...so nice to hug the ones that want to hug you back...
to laugh and smile without pressure.

thankyou

11:05pm: fucking beans
beans and rice...im living off of this right now..that along with lots of fruits.

tonight im gonna go shrooming...
im totally sad because of ...
but whatever

Kim is wonderful she is making me go out even though i feel like poo and i havent really slept in 2 days.
i have but its been bad sleep.
alcohol...
no more binge drinking.

i dont like to be bent over throwing up. But i dont learn my lesson.

free booze but what mamma wants is really free shoes.
my roomates gave me tequila ...im semi awake...waiting to get picked up.

whyyyyyyyyyyy dude i swear im so over guys. im gonna turn into a big lezbot.
im pretty drunk.
my room is so fucking small. I wish i had cute neighbors or something. i have two papers due and i barely started research. WHATS WRONG WITH ME. and i have to do a video review along with going to 3 jazz concerts.
procrastination is fucking killer.
my breath smells like garlic.

im really bad at writing back responses lately...especially on friendster. I worry too much...im going to change my name on this thing to...
on the good ship lollipop side...i got this rad jacket thats pink zebra...hey i know what you are all thinking.."pink zebra what are you britney spears?" nooooo wayyyyy joseeeeeee its way better the cut is fantabulous!
having a car in the city sucks big hairy balls i swear...ive gotten like 10 tickets already. i think im gonna go to community service.

in a drunken blur i lost my phone last night. Paola had to wake me up in the taxi cab.
i want another shot.
oh goooodddddyyy i hear honking she is here. bye

11:55am: shit
its been a definite ride up here right now...and i think ive fallen in love...
the local hot shit at the bar likes me...which is rad but i already found someone.
I think he is everything i have wanted...its completely surreal. ANdrew who the FUCK is andrew>>?

been partying meeting people left and right and im already in a tight group of friends up here...my boy is a musician and an ex skater...im completely smittened by him and i cant explain it. the guy at the bar with the beautiful blue eyes...he is dangerous...i wont mess with that ish...

Ive moved from the castro into this really small spot in lower haight but its smack dab in the middle of it all!!
katherine is staying at my small ass room till she finds another place to stay. i love her she is amazing and so adorable...we just sit around and talk about sex and we even do the sounds!
ive surprisingly enough been drinkng way less and not smoking pot as much but i never stopped...its mellowed out so much.
coming out of a bar so wasted and falling over is not a cool thing to do in a new city but hey!!! ive got people that do the same and its tolerable.i love my new nikes...i love my new room...i love my new...its not quite love yet. I live underneath stairs so im a troll...but a troll with a closet!! Ikea needs me to come in and make space for myself.

this is surreal...this whole concept of living on my own and dealing with things financially on my own...
the job at the snowboard shop...i find out today.
check out jessica-miller.com...
she is going to take some photographs of me. she met me at the minna and said she wanted to shoot me...but not with a gun!
damn he is amazing...
i cant stop thinking about him
my creative writing process has been stewing since i moved up here and i havent been able to write until lately. I have anew friend her name is rhonda and she is super fun to hang out with and these girls are the best girls to party with...well except jenny and denise and renee and sandy and just everything...i do miss LA and i d miss home and i do miss my friends and my surroundings especially my beautiful niece. i forgot how to post pictures up so if you know how holla at me !!!!!! damn i wish i had my moms cooking right now...but hollaaaaaa there is vegan pho up here and its soo good! <---not vegan though
i made up this word....its SKAZY...
well me and shawn made it up actually iin a taxi ride...
skazy is a cross between sketchy and lazy and sleezy....because this city is full with people like that!!!
on hallooweeny i was chun li...and my friend was the blue chun li...halloweeny i met a boy from france who is a dope ass graffiti artist...im going to be friends with him because id rather be faithful to whoever im talking to at the moment.

the other night we walked from haight to western edition to japan town to nob hill to tenderloin to market to coit tower to fishermans wharf...then we spent the night cuddling.

tonight im going to yerba buena to see his friends perform at the art show. the last artshow we had was amazing and ben horton was simply amazing as well. www.benhortonart.com
jenny i miss you. <3
you are like a big sister to me. and i miss us giggling together.

I AM ON CLOUD NINE....but it would be better if i got the job at the snowboard shop. keep your fingers crossed!!

6:12pm: it all started when i left home...the visiters...its been so nice. Familar faces in a city (not so far) from Renee flaked...

constant gigggles kept me up and then i had to go to school on thursday night when they got in. We laughed so hard...it seemed like i hadnt laughed that hard in ages with the girls. It felt so nice. Even though the cat nearly killed jen and beth.

Beth and i shared an interesting journey through the magical yet mystical realm we call "public transportation" on this trip we encountered JESUS CHRIST SUPERSTAR...and so we did a rhythmic clap and tribal dance. Gosh i miss those girls...
and
KARAOKE...smoked pot drank a whole lot and sang songs...you really havent lived till a big black man sings CHERISH...i think i annoyed my roomate...she is super chill though

i realized a bit when i began my weekly analysis...that i am...and sometimes i get...

well onto other stories...i got really annoyed by _________ and had a severe case of PMS.
I feel aweful about it...but you cant teach an old dog new tricks. That cliche one liner was not directed towards myself. i got some shoes i wanted...a jacket ive been wanting...
my apartment/ room hunt begins NOW...

the fog rolled in today and now its a bit chilly...it wasnt so bad this month or last...but the sunny days are coming to a standstill.

i just got a phone call...i have an interview with american rag tommorrow @ 1:30. 12 dollars an hour? or minimum wage plus commission? i also put a resume in @ ROLO...i think i would rather work at rolo. SO what happened to OM records? too much hassle...3 months no pay and im running out of money...its nice i havent depended on my parents...its all been government aid!!

11:56am: as of...
last night...i saw RADIOHEAD...FRONT AND CENTER where the lawn seats were...

only problem...i did not cry. It was amazing...the lighting...Thom's silliness on stage...so adorable. the atmosphere...it was like we were under a circus tent...with cirque de soleil type lighting...amazing...and added 2 encore sets.

i am tired...

i have been pmsing...i yelled at him...hahaha first time ive ever yelled at a boy whilst on PMS.
ive been eating a lot of gourmet cheeses and baguettes. But i haven't turned french yet. Nancy came down from seattle and we had so much fun. but she was only down for a day.
I think im going to plan a trip to mammoth this next month with monica...and then sometime this year with nancy and then head to whistler/vancouver and snowboard there.

even at the ripe age of 27...you find out that guys still are as immature as if they were 16 all over again. I asked my roomate she is 33...she says they still dont change at that age either.

I saw Khris at radiohead...some girl was yelling "YOU ARE A BITCH YOU ARE A BITCH" and finally i look back and its khris. hahaha shit it was funny. aiee barachos. alright man its gonna be an all out girl fest...khris libby jenny denise renee tina dani and beth!! say whattt???

the other day ...oh shit i had to interupt that thought...J logic is just incorporating who took the bon by le tigre...haha and mixed it in...he just had UB40 sting...mixed with some dub...hahaha man this guy is a rocking DJ for sure. oh i miss LA. erika called me the other day back finally...

i need a few things...

my roomate gave me a bong the other night and another pipe...and the other day at amoeba ig ot 2 cd's for free...no i didnt clepto that shit!!
walked around late at night alone with friends...this weekend i walked around a lot.

1:29pm: in my room...
alright damn SF...why will you not bring me good quality boys who arent slackers? whats his name is visiting me next week...and then nancy from seattle is coming the same weekend. But i really miss...the other one...oh no i dont mean that one !!
Then the best part of it all...jen denise and renee and beth are coming up!!

Oh did i tell you i found a brand new futon on the side of the street?? i think i am gonna move the couch out of my room. and leave the aero bed for my geusts. Its a Pottery Barn Futon and its brand spankin new. It was on market where market turns into portola. Imaagine two girls on the side of the road lugging around a big futon and sniffing it to make sure its okay.

today, this mamma jamma is gonna go do laundry. Kenny wants to meet up and get a drink later on but im low on funds. B last night took me and kim out to eat at this korean BBQ place and smoked us out. then greg tells me that the attic?? i miss how i would go to places and know people...its happening here but its just not the same.

i have a pimple on my nose...it hurts...

My skin is pretty rad up here right now...im cleaning my room..lauren you are gonn abe up here this weekend? i have a list of chores to do today...and i need to finish them...
artist booking/ info
flyer
read
go get books from kims house
thrift stores
laundry...
so far ive...gotten artist info...and laundry...and cleaned my room (sorta) oh yeah
need to go get artist curriculim for the school. need to contact julio for an interview. goodness...

on the lighter note...it was nice to see tammy and natalie

cant wait to see you guys <3

my stomach hurts...i ate a lot yesterday and spent zero dollars...it was all snacks and beer and pasta...carbs central for sure. my roomate loves lush!! im gonn aburn all of her lush Cd's . i lost all of mine except for a split and a single and lovelife. okay so im going to go do more chores now.

11:24am: holy moly
AMAZING...its an extreme ride. 3 weeks up here so far...
update??? SO much i cant even begin. its been a nonstop ride and i dont want it to end. to finally go to school and enjoy learning and being in an environment that sparks more interest to learn. Everything...thus far is quite exhilerating. SFSu's photography department is so underfunded though. but at least im on the right track!

I do miss jenny i do miss denise and renee...but up here i have kim and tori and of course abby...i met amy i met this person that person met up with another person...and rekindled something with someone. thats as detailed as i will get. Nate moved up here...and so did katherine but she is so busy. meeting friends of other friends and realizing how great it is to not see crappy dyed hair, and drama free individuals. Even better surrounding myself with positive people. please lord no whiners. Jenny and I have already had that with B. She just whined and whined about everything...for heavens sake your 25 stop it.
Kim lives really far from me and i am usually drunk and dont like to drive her home at night. The other night i got lost on the OWL before hitting the taxi.

I got this pink camoflauge jacket and its probably one of the best investments in a jacket that i have. so i packed on that friday, came up here sunday 2am...unpacked by monday morning 12:00...since then...ive been to a plethora of bars...random parties...meeting the most random people...a possible internship at OM records...class 4 days a week...art shows...hit on this really cute bartender...which i totally made a fool of myself in front of him when i left my keys at the bar, and screaming at the taxi driver for saying "you are lucky i didnt call the cops on you" stupid footwipe! oh yeah and my first art show opening for the school...that went really well. i have to get in contact with the artist to interview him...it wsa really fun, the whole time me and my classmates drank wine and talked. This class is so fun im gonna love it.

SO i geuss i didnt embaress myself too much...he did call me last night and wanted to hang out.

beauty bar sucks up here...its all yuppified. i know i always told myself that i would never get nikes...but...
grey and orange nikes, how can i say no? and for 35?? i got hooked the fuck up!!

oh man i have a headache. last night i went to 9th and folsom...what i really meant was 9th and fulton! okay so the other day i randomly met some girl at the busstop and we conversed and she invited me to her friends house and we smoked some dank together. VAPORIZER! thats all i gotta say. so then i hiked home. my home is beautiful...theres this hiking trail that i take to and from school...and the castro station is just right there.

i made a new recipe for this really good stroganoff-esque pasta dish with spinach potato portabello mushrooms and this really creamy yummy cheese called Comte, whats makes it stroganoff is that i used a yogurt base (its supposed to be sour cream) to start off the creamy consistency because i didnt have cream. My roomate was pretty happy, so was i. I found out he is not gay...but not like that matters because he is not cute. I live with 2 older professionals...and let me tell you its better to live with older people than it is to live with young kids.

But i have to move or make my decision on staying here within the next month...or 2. a month before nov 15th. The view...the oh so holy view of the city from my house...the easy access parking...the heater...its carpetted...my bathroom is like a roman bathhouse. and they have all these herbs and spices and cooking utensils!!
plus...they stock up on alcohol...independence is such an unfamiliar feeling to me. It feeels so right to move up here. life has been drama free lets hope it stays this way.

I wont even bother with reading any old friends post, because im so tired and i have no time to read post. Ive decided not to even read my friends post anymore. I will just write. need to not even have internet access here. But i do, so i will take advantage of it. I just cant abuse it. I really hope i get this internship <3 xoxoxox-tina

i will now sleep. ive got a headache.

9:26am: i would like to...
just say that the next art show will be even more off the hook!

Featured artist: TBA...aieee !! aie!@!! aiee!! im so excited soooooooo excited !!!!

fucking shit!!!! if i can get these 3 artist...man!! Mr Simon better let us have that artwork for more than one night. amazing amazing! But im afraid that the other crowd at Vine wont be as respectful to the artwork.

I am going to drive down once a month from SF to do these shows...and i need someone to help me with promotions while im away. any volunteers? pass out flyers to different galleries...we will be making some dope ass flyers as soon as possible.

my nails are so dry they are crizzacking...

fuck i keeep delaying on the move...im barely packing!! im gonna have my brother send some boxes later. Renee is coming up to SF with me! My wonderful brother is buying her a plane ticket home. I love my brother sheesh...he is so supportive of me...he now sees that im doing something with my life, my parents on the other hand just think im a socialite...and i they think what i do is not valid...which gets me really sad...but

theeee other day at X large and X girl...WOW! the sales were off the hook...

i have so much to do today...get my car cleaned and do all that oil change stuff...pack pack pack..
RANDOM THOUGHTS...

Got reallly drunk last night! i wasnt supposed to stay in LA past 10:00 "tina go home and pack"...welll....beauty bar...dirty martini...Vine= Mohito + fondue...simon wasnt there must meet up with the owner soon...cape cods, rasberry stoli and vodka, some shot ? i dont know what it was called, stella artois. You know those Emergen- C powders? if you put that in a rasberry stoli and vodka?? its realllly good!! ITS LIKE CANDY IN A CUP!

I loveeee jenny...last night we traded shoes and i looked like a cheap vietnamese hooker that couldnt walk in heels. damN!! how can she walk in those things?? and can i add she can hold her liquor. I got small boobies...the psychic told me that i am going to get some plastic surgery done sometime in the future...but not near! i want braces...i think its gonna be that...i accept my small boobies. and my big booty.

i emailed him...when you are over someone its so much easier to write and just tell them...the other guy called me as well and ive been avoiding him...i aint gonna talk to your shaddddy ass you ass ass ass! Man once you lost my trust, trust me that it is hard to ever gain it back. But in the meantime if you gots my trust use it wisely because i will heart you. I always wake up early especially when hungover...then i get sleeeeeepy im sleeepy.

9:30am: oh?
psychic...

she told me some pretty deep info. I was really hesitant to go to this woman...but also really curious.
Denise took me to see her, i geuss her mom and her family have been going to this psychic for a while now. it was completely surreal...she stepped outside and yelled at a little girl...her love for animals or just simply a mad old woman? Nahhhh i dont think that.

her name is lily...she is russian...very old very frail...and what she believes GOD to be?..."he is not man sitting on clouds with big long beard...he is everywhere around you in this flower and everything that was created"...or something like that

well...what lies in the future looks...im not gonna jinx it...but she did however ask me for my autograph...

still a skeptic...but some of this was just too real to be coincidence.

last night! some party then bar then another bar...saw old coworkers and got free drinks...did a mistake call and that someone returned the call and we chatted for a bit. IM DUMB.

okay enough! LETS GET BACK TO THE PSYCHIC. Old lady she told me not to tell anyone where she lived or her name...and it was like something straight out of a movie. The other day i went to lanterman (the mental institution) and rode a big person tricycle around. it had a basket in the back and it was really fun to ride. i saw horses...and a lot of mentally disabled people (not me)...and cast for a movie they are filming there. Okay i geuss i should have gotten back to the psychic instead of wandering through the lanterman banter. by the way there is a real live nurse ratchett at Lanterman...plus i went there high as a kite so the crazy people tripped me out even more...i almost stepped in the wrong bathroom...shivers...

im going to write what the psychic told me in my private journal entry...look back at it in a few years and see whats happened? that or look back within..7 days or 7 weeks or 7 months...for what is to come.

1:20pm: Its really...
Surprising!

The humble beginnings of us meeting in our broadcasting class and then now to our business venture together. Its sad that im leaving Metronome after working with jen for these brief m onths. Really rocky at first then these past shows ive doen with her and the latest two have set the tone for whats to come. On saturday
I was so surprised at how well the event went and the word a mouth press.
The artist Geoff Oki sold about 5 pieces...and keep in mind it was his FIRST art show.
Each artist sold at the least 2-3 pieces. The alcohol was flwoing and we all got more drink tickets.
Not to mention Jason71 did an amazing video installation.
Went to rootdown again on thursday and had an exhilerating night with laura and denise and renee...i still have to develop those pictures. i think i know what to give them as going away gifts. Miles from Rootdown was gracious enough to do a DJ set at our event. HE definitely got the dancefloor moving. I really appreciated that because it was the cherry on top of the sundae. If only we would have known earlier to get the word out on that.
ALL of the artist brought in great geust, and i had a blast. Im going to miss this and i think maybe im making a mistake by leaving something while its starting to bloom.
Tammy thankyou so much for the gift! i came home drunk and opened up every little present within a present. The support from my friends that came was really uplifting.
Jenny is probably one of the best business partners ive ever had the chance to work with. not to mention my only. She is truly like an older sister to me, and i know we will keep in touch. im delaying it...i dont want to move yet.

LC had an blast too...i actually saw him and michelle dancing...oh yeah and one of the artist WIlson was dancing too!
SO i will continue with this study...art history...and keep pursuing this. I think im going in the right direction...
everything will come if the lines have been traced...i just gotta go over it.
Next week...
Already put in the deposit...and first months rent...
The anticipation is killing me! my youth is slowly fleeting and im growing up...im sorry its just something im totally tripping out on. I hope what im doing is right...all i know is that i enjoy art and i adore working with artist and helping them out like they help me.

This month has been the month of ex's and boy mishaps. But boy ive had fun. So many old flings have gotten a hold of me this month...and some dont even really know im leaving. Its somethign in the air. Kim has already moved to San francisco...tori is up there...abby is up there...rebecca is up there (hi becca)...the twins will be moving up there...

Im really trying to get jenny to move up there. My goal is to start something up in San Francisco...like the nights that we throw down here. But what Vine and BeautyBar and Star shoes are affiliated with up there like Arrow bar and Beauty bar up there are in sketchy shady areas...and bad wall space.
WOW we really got lucky to get Vine.

I like to ramble in post...because no one reads long ones. I echo that all the time! but its true no one really reads long post. wow and someone up in San Francisco has a little crush on me? i dont think im feelin it though.
Denise is heading to AIU renee is almost finished with UCLA ...i on the other hand feel like a highschool 18 year old anticipating the next move. I think i got the party outta me...its all toning down.
Im excited to learn more about art history...and change my major...im excited about taking more photography classes and digitial photography classes...im excited about having my car when i move up tehre...im extremely excited about living on my own with two people i dont know. im curious to think about my lovelife...or will i even have one?...also snowboarding in tahoe...new job...

oh yeah...today i see a psychic. Im sorta scared but...im curious...

please dont let curiosity kill this kat.

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1:01pm: damn
I officially live in Twin Peaks now. AMAZINGGGG view of the city and its carpeted!! a room in SF 5 minutes from the haight and and and...a balcony/porch area...plus...easy parking...safe neighborhoood...close to school and everything else...huge kitchen!! i will share a bathroom with a guy...

Just before i found that spot i put an ad on craigslist that said "GIRL NEEDS ROOM ASAP CALL NOW" and in the message said "i will only be in the city for one more day to view apartments please call me ASAP @--- --- ----" then i had a brief description of myself and my interest, and right as i was walking to crossroads someone calls...me and leiland go up there and what do i see??? i couldnt stop saying WOW! but its for 3 months so i have more time to find another spot to live. Since i drove i really didnt want to drive around drunk from the city to oakland so at night we mostly stayed in oakland and hung out there and did the late night thing in SF on friday night and sunday night...oh yeah listened to a lot of rap.

ohhh yeah ghetto life...
i was in oakland for a night and spent some time with "the homies" ...every minute a crackhead would walk pass the porch and his friends would talk crap to the people walking by...it was a total spike lee movie moment...old friends...pot on the porch...cops driving by...crackheads wearing kneepads...gangsta gangsta...and hearing them talk about pounding beers on the street corner and reminiscing about that old neighborhood mrs robinson...the old barber shop etc.

really hot up there this weekend. ate that pizza again...found out that i am deathly allergic to cats...
and well...that one phone call that semi fucked up my weekend...well not really it just got me to put things in perspective. i wont really gush about that in public...

my next trek up will be a lone one. I need to learn how to drive that long distance without someone to talk to...
going away party...there will be cake there.

i hope this last event goes well before i move...i need support people!! jason 71 needs support as well...

Cannibal Flower and P.U.R.E EVENTS
Present:
Metronome: A Beat Lounge and Art Collective
AT
VINE- Fondue, Wine, Beer, and Sake
Hollywood/East Hollywood
1235 N. Vine St. (bet. Fountain & Lexington
Aves.) Hollywood, CA, 90038
(323) 960-0800
STARTS: 8:30PM-2AM
On Thursday, August 14th

ART SHOW AND LOUNGE UPSTAIRS AND MUSIC AND
DANCING DOWNSTAIRS

Featured artist:
Geoff Oki- www.geoffoki.com
Jason 71-Video installation
Wilson Hsu
David Magdaleno
LC Crosky
CURATED BY: TINA DANG

Resident DJ Len: Deluxe and Clear One
Spinning an eclectic mix of hip hop, d and b,
downtempo, funky soul, rare grooves, 80's and
more...

There is a $5 dollar donation and
proceeds will go to "Its Time for Kids" which is
a non-profit org that helps underpriveleged
youth. www.itstimeforkids.org

Try and get there EARLY!! It will get packed.
PLEASE RESPECT THE VENUE.

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from here its all up in the air...its hitting...im moving? 22 years and it took me this long to gain a minuscule of independence...we'll see where things fall and how they land. Its all pretty exciting...and the excitement causes more people to do the same...its just an energy thing i think. positive and spontaneous energy causes others to do the same...well ive gotten quite a few people addicted to friendster now and had caught up with some other people i thought i would never see again. there were 2 weddings up north this weekend and jason went to one in vegas...weddings are popping up left and right...which makes me wonder how soon will mine come? Despite the fact that im single and attachment is a bit frightening...thoughts of love and devotion to another intrigue me...i was reading over an old journal that i had and it was really weird to see the progression of love and hate...the up and downs and recording this in a paper bound journal. But what was worst was the foretelling of what was to come in the end...

2:03pm: bee stings...

Current Mood: giddy

Current Music: cibo matto

2:52am: ahhh shiet
remember when you turned 18 and thought...Man ive heard so much about rootdown...i wannna go? too bad im addicted and i wanna go more...

tonight i saw Ugly Duckling...best part?? i would say the no pay charge and the dancing to reggae with denise. thanks denise !!

i write in this mess...ive had it because erYn my snowboard sister snowgddess turned me onto this 4 years ago...then there comes a rush of people on this...thanks erYn...i cant wait to snowboard...i seriously cant...if i get that job at that snowboard shop up north i would be so happy. Happiness comes when you least expect it though...just like love...but i havent been expecting that. I know its not going to come anytime sooon. im 22...love isnt gonna come till im...well i dunno?

when its less personal and more people read it...i geuss its just not the same...and well you cant write much.
SOrry rebecca...there was just misunderstanding with the squarepusher show...im sure the show was amazing though. Oh well there will be more shows in the bay area im sure.

Im pretty smittened...i hate the fact that im moving and im meeting (met) incredible people. tonight i did somethign bad...but i didnt mean to...and well i got a call and i didnt mean to call that person. I hope they dont think i did that on purpose. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh oh well...well there is this thing called locking your keys...and i never do it...

Can i just tell you how great the show with Ugly Duckling was today? upbeat crowd tightttt ass beats, good vibes and best of all good music to dance to. Props to all of you.
i love dancing to reggae...im still tripping over the fact that im uh...


moving.


my roomate is adorable. i just hope we find a place for two rooms for us now. that one bedroom was in the mission and i certainly dont want to live there. what did i get myself into? i had a place but the 400 dollar room was yes too good to be true...so now im on a mission for two instead of one.

i doubt this journal will make sense..considering i usually wreite while intoxicated...which proves to be the best way to write and not give a fuck. thanky ou thankyou.
I smell like 3 things...alcohol, new clothes, and smoke...so sexy right? alright thats about it ... being really tired and drunk leads to...nonsense. I hate ants!!!

this new shirt i got is cool...superficial artificial makes you want to make a wish...so you can keep.

nitey nite nite nite nite

2:10am: thanks for lunch jason ! im going to miss a lot about southern california. 2 years in SF or more and and im going to throw one last party at vine before i go...so far we have 5 artist. if it werent for financial aid i dont think i could have done this.

Hmmm maybe a job...but where? a friend offered me a job at a snowboard shop, and another girl offered me a job at one of those lotions, candles and nicknacks for women shops. oh well who knows.

today i got really high...really high...
it felt so good to rub my hands through my hair....soooo goood...ate an abundance of pineapple, fresh apricots, and frites.

SF did however bring some dissapointments. But overall it was a good trip.
Found a really nice roomate, ate really good pizza, really good saetan sandwhiches, garlic fries, got really cool classes...so far : World Music, Museum design and exibition, Society and Cinema, History of jazz, History of Rock and roll 60's-present. then next semester i start more of my actual major classes. 3 of those music classes were for the transfer courses that i needed to take before i graduate. Not to mention bars...one after another.what i really hate about it there is that its so expensive. Cheap is considered a room for 450-500 a room! im being picky too...i really dont want to live in the mission.

im waiting for the next chapter of my life to begin right when this all starts.

i get high high high...everyday...i get high high high...everynight...i get high high high high highghghghghgghghgh
STyleZ P
hahaha

Im glad im still in school...im glad i get to be lazy and get money from the state to go to learn. im not glad what a friend said to me when i was up in SF. Im glad who i met and hung out with. Im totally high and rambling. Ants are annoying you would think that they would get adapted to the heat and live outside and not come inside. STOP COMING INSIDE! yuck...

oh yeah i had to edit this post to remind myself that "Happy birthday to you " on this day...and that would be the last that i ever contact you.

11:32pm: more news from the jungles...
Dear Duc,

Rhonda and I just returned from Brownsberg Nature Reserve. We spent 6
nights sleeping in the jungles on hammocks. The local researchers at the
station were fascinated that I was a mushroom expert and Rhonda a reptile
expert, so they catered towards me and Rhonda like we were great
scientists--much too cool. I had to identify much of the mushroom for them
since they have no training at all. Moreover, they have asked me to come
back and perform a full mushroom survey of the area as a visiting
scientist--I don't think so. My hands are completely scratched from the
bushwacking that we performed--made a new trail for the station; I was the
machete king for the day. The country is so absolutely expensive, much
like the United States. We just spent another 600 dollars (300 each) for a
trip to Volksberg, which is another nature reserve. We will spend 4 nights
there and then head over to Galibi, hopefully with Adam, to see the
leatherback turtles. I think that Adam has things
under control so it is unlikely that I will be staying for another month,
maybe another week or two at the most. This trip has exhausted all the
money that I ever had, but it has been one of the strangest and most
surreal one yet. Life here is quite weird, Josh, but Rhonda and I are
adapting slowly. One of the scientist at the station drove us back to the
city and decided to give us a full tour of the city--radical. I love it
here, but it is so expensive that I don't ever expect to come back. I miss
Pacifica, the waves, the cool weather, my computer, etc. I wish that I
could expound on the culture and the experiences that I've had, but alas
time is quickly running out and I have no more money to spend.
Incidentally, the upcoming trip to Volksberg will involve a single engine
cessna, which is dangerous enough, but in a third world country it is even
more of a gamble. In the event that you don't hear from me in the next two
or three weeks, I will have died in a plane
crash. In the event of this catastrophic tragedy, my car is parked at
Joel's house, and you should pick it up there, his email address is
joel.reed@bts.com. Nothing will happen, and you should not tell mom about
this. This is merely precautionary measures. Say Hi to Mom and Dad for
me. Life's strange, life's surreal, life's sad, life's a diamond.

Always, Minh.

11:56am: ahhh shit ....ahhhhh shit
this weekend consisted of:

got drunk with lauren and danced and took off our shirts as we drove around LA...HELL IT WAS HOT! redbull and vodka for sure

saturday went to a photography shoot to assist the photographer and prep the model...then to Zuma beach all day...then to some party then to the most monumental event so far this summer...

Easy Roc of the Rocksteady crews birthday/ luau party. though it took us an hour to find it we got there and it was so fun. Ztrip was on the tables spinning the freakiest shit (so good) and watching old breakers do their thang on the matts was pretty freakin cool. Old breakers still as fresh as the young breakers. Better style than the new breakers. so fluid! their style was off the hook and watching them do their funky thing on the dancefloor made me laugh and smile so much. And when the young breakers got in the mix it was so great! laughed so hard that night i think bridgette couldnt sleep. remniscent of my shroom trip but i wasnt on shrooms...

sunday was a lazy sunday...going to SF this tuesday...staying till saturday...in the meantime i found out i have to take these segment 3 courses at SFSU...missed my registration time...so i gotta do that right now...so confusing so confusing...so close so close...im hesitant to leave yet so anxious...

my mom is going to take me shopping to buy the normal "dorm" stuff...except i wotn be staying in the dorms. financial aid money comes in in september...wooo hooo okay gotta go bye bye

Current Mood: nervous

12:12pm: unexplainable
i tend to do this a lot...i forget names...but at least people are nice about it.

so confused lately...so excited so nervous...SF is coming sooner and sooner than i thought. Saw an unexpected fling at beauty bar last night. WOW i cant believe we ran into each other...he makes me cringe though..."when you move up to SF im gonna hook you up with my friends" yadda yadda yeah right name dropppppppperr i dont care that your friend works for a certain magazine each time i saw you you mentione dthat to me..."im gonna hook you up with yadda yadda from yadda yadda..." though i admit if he did do that it would be cool to get that kind of connect in SF.

i start my new job next monday thanks to lauren...i will be carpooling to irvine...make some money and then bounce from the jobby job but they dont need to know that. just some extra money to have in the pocket so that i won be extremely broke when im up there. just semi.

at target the other day i got the cutest bikini for 14.99 each top and bottom...its pink and brown and i took the ties off the pink polka dot bikini to enhance the one i bought. i dont consider that stealing...i consider that making the most of my money. hahaha yeah but its adorable and i now know that i dont have to spend up to 80 dollars for a bathing suit.karla...remind me to NOT ever go shopping with you ever again..."buy it buy it"..."hi karla i like this but im not sure..."...."buy it buy it".

whoaa so this guy just called tht i havent spoke with in months now...wierd okay bye bye

2:21pm: when you!!!!
when you least expect it ..least least least least least...it happens. for christ sake!! i gotta be firm and not let down my guard.

okay here is a email from my brother. He is currrently in some jungle in south america. my other brother forwarded this to me from work...

Read how weird our brother is...

Duc D

----- Forwarded by Duc Dang/CSD/IRV/TOSHIBA-TAIS on 07/08/2003 01:37 PM
Hey,

I arrived in the deep jungle in a small rickety plane. Things are great
here, however, the only problem, again, are the relentless stings and
bites from the mosquitoes, chiggers, sandflies and other stinking
insects. My entire body is covered with red dots. I will have internet
access only today and maybe in two weeks. Can you forward this to
Jackie? Thanks. The time is out. I have no money. Tell mom I'm fine.

M

Ezekiel Dang
Dept. of Biology
San Francisco State University

...its me now...okay now imagine that letter in a very stoner/ surferish voice. i wonder when he will be back? my siblings have travelled so much! why arent i !? maybe by the time i move up to SF me and him will be closer?

12:29pm: beach
man i am so burnt...my back stings and my chest is red. im like a chocolate cherry or something

8:43am: thankyou!
hello and thankyou for everyone that came to the event last night. it went fucking well. a lot better than i had thought it would go. we made money for the charity..the bar made money...the so called gallery feel made out better than i thought and the turnout was nice !!
all that shameless promotion worked out for the better and people are looking forward to our next event. amazing!! im on a good high right now ...but im highhh on life. some friendster boy met me there and he brought his friends...i geuss his friends know andrew too. It went well im just happy that people showed up. This venue is going to be ten times better than star shoes and the upstairs is just off the hook. the traffic flow was good and the art was amazing. im going to send all the artist a thankyou card. spencer fujimoto and some other guys showed up! i gotta go figure out this july 4th menu now

ahhh yeahhh tim mccormick gave me a deck from his skateboard series! whoop whoop! he felt bad because my car was towed and it was an excuse to give me a birthday present. man im gonna treasure this thing forever!